I thought he was the one who would stand by my side through everything & I thought I wanted to do that for him too. I thought I would love him for the rest of my life & we would be able to take this journey through life together for the rest of our lives.
I had no idea that 3 years later I would not love him like I loved him that day. That I would not trust him like I did that day. That I would not mean those vows the same exact way I meant them that day, standing next to him in front of the Pastor, in front of our friends & family.
|Mr. & Mrs. Eddi Girl|
The truth is, I love him more than I did the day I said yes to his proposal & more than I did the day I stood next to him & made promises to him. I trust him more than that day. Over the last 3 years I have grown even more in love with him.
As I have watched this man take on the responsibility of all of these children, grow as a parent to them & not only that, but actually love them as his own, I've fallen even more in love with him. When we got married, we had the pastor do a Family Prayer & all 8 of us held hands in a circle while Pastor prayed over our newly formed new family. In that moment, this bachelor decided he would not only love 1 woman for the rest of his life but also parent this family with her.
|The flowers hubby had|
delivered to me at work.
Hubby is an amazing man & truly is the other half of me. He gets me in a way that no one else does. With one look, he knows what I'm thinking--& not just the Eddi Look that says "I'm beyond annoyed, you better fix this situation." He knows more about me than anyone else in the world & still loves me.
I am so happy that I have found that True Love that everyone talks about. There was a time I didn't think it existed & when I was least expecting it, & definitely not looking for it, it appeared right in front of me. We were meant to be together & each day our love grows & our relationship is stronger than the day before. Even the evil ex, being pathetic with her attempts to tear us apart, only makes us stronger & appreciate each other more. When you find the one you're supposed to be with, nothing can separate you.
We celebrated our Anniversary on Tuesday & I can't believe it's been 3 years. We have been through so much in that time, but it still feels like we just got married. Thankfully, I'd do it all over again. Thankfully, because life would suck if I didn't feel that way. And actually, I'd love to put my wedding dress on again & walk down that aisle again, & say those vows again. I wouldn't mind being a bride again & having my dream wedding again...as long as hubby was the one waiting at the end of the aisle again. It'd suck if we renewed our vows & he didn't show up 'cause he got cold feet. Hmm...something to think about when I plan our Vow Renewal.
|"You were supposed to smile."|
|"I know what you're doing."|
|"Stop making me laugh."|
Last night I asked hubby, "If I was paralyzed & unable to speak, would you know how to do things for me?" He asked me what I meant. I said, "Like, if you had to tuck me in just how I like to sleep." He said, "In the fetal position, with your Comfy Blanket, feet uncovered." I asked him if I wasn't able to talk, would he be able to tell someone things like my 3 favorite colors ('cause the first 2 are easy), my favorite meal (he gave me 2 answers, based on whether I'd be able to chew or not), & it's these little things like that that mean the most to me. These little things that tell me he cares to know them.
|My Maid of Honor|
When unexpected things happened that looked like it would turn my wedding into a nightmare, she was the one I called crying. She was a total rock & calmed me down with, "This is what we will do. It'll be okay, I promise." And it was not only okay, it was better than I imagined. When others said or did things that threatened to upset me on my big day, she was the one that took over so that I didn't even know what had happened until months later.
When I told her I was making the bouquets, boutonnieres, & corsages, she didn't say, "But you have no idea what you're doing, you're crazy!" She said, "Awesome! When are we going shopping for flowers?" When we went shopping & all I knew was that my colors were purple & brown, what kind of flowers I wanted in my bouquet but not the others, & that I did NOT want roses anywhere, she didn't even bat an eye. Just patiently sorted through flowers, helping me put together bouquets, until I found exactly what I wanted. When I surprised her by putting her favorite color in the mix, she got teary. She knows I'm not particularly a fan of her favorite color but I found a shade of orange that I loved & worked great with the purple & browns we picked out.
|Ginger Girl with the bouquets.|
(Ginger Girl walked me down the aisle, 'cause
what's better than 1 red head walking down an aisle?
|A Mother's corsage.|
This picture of hubby saying his vows is one of my favorites of the ceremony.
|A friend took this picture by sneaking a|
peek around the pillars just before I
walked down the aisle & I love it!