I studied my butt off all quarter long.
|I studied on|
|Every day of vacation.|
|So much studying.|
I was exhausted, I was emotional, and I was desperate to have my life back.
|"No, baby, I'm totally..." |
|"Talk fast, I'm quickly|
|"Just let me finish this one|
|"I'm just resting my eyes|
because they're worn out."
I missed my family as I worked long hours with a 3-hour round trip commute.
| Look at me, I fake being|
wide awake pretty well.
|"Don't fall asleep at|
this stop light. Don't
|Talk to me about covering |
bags under the eyes.
I've become an expert.
There were moments of questionable sanity.
|"Say cheese, Sim Man..."|
|I handed my studying over |
to a sleeping cat.
There were those in my life who kept me focused on what was most important.
|Watson made sure he was never neglected.|
|Nemo had her own way|
of begging for attention.
|"I brought you a toy, now let's play."|
I couldn't have done it without my wonderful children being so understanding and helpful.
|"Blondie, can you get me a Coke with ice|
while I work on this?"
I couldn't have done it without my wonderfully supportive hubby.
Until my mentor said to me, "Every day is a choice. Every day he chooses to be with you because he loves you. Now you can choose to let go of things or you can choose to hold onto them and be unhappy..." I made my choice on the way home from talking to her. I chose to see the small stuff for what it was: petty and unimportant, and I let it go. We took some time to ourselves to talk about the stuff that did matter. And listen. And old issues were resolved.
Our commitment to each other is the only thing that got us to the other side and being able to show and feel love again. Stress is a powerful, horrible parasite that sucks the life out of a person and a relationship, if it is not addressed immediately. Thankfully, we didn't let stress kill our marriage and I learned a lot about how strong we are. I know if we can survive the stress of this quarter, which was at a level I never imagined possible, I know we can handle anything, together.
Each "way to go, Mom" from my kids and "I'm proud of you" from my parents has helped me through more bad days than I can count. My friends and family have been a huge support through this quarter as I questioned whether I was strong enough to deal with everything along with my crippling Evil Back. They held me together when I literally could not stand on my own.
All of my hard work and dedication paid off as I earned the highest grade in the class for the most difficult course in nursing school. From the first day of school, the instructors, deans, and former students make sure you're aware that this particular class will be...to paraphrase...hell, and not everyone passes the first time they take it. That is why I am so proud to say that I completed this quarter with a 4.0. I feel sad for my friends that didn't pass and it made it bittersweet for me as I kept my own happiness quiet. I wish they could have congratulated me on my hard earned grade, since they know how difficult it was to accomplish.
I am so very proud of myself and grateful for all the support I received. In just a few short months, I will graduate as a nurse and these days will all be memories.